Being married to an amazingly hot woman, smart, and sexual woman is a thrill a minute. Mostly they go like this - amazingly hot and vibrant woman walks into a room, all eyes turn to her, and much attention is paid to her. Meanwhile, even as awesome as one is, one is really second fiddle to the rest of the hoi-polloi in terms of attention shown.
I've learned to live with this 'vibe' of our local swing community. After all, I'm no one of consequence. I'm just the person that provides the stability and male half of our wonderful relationship - pay no attention to the flying buttress that supports the stained glass. I'm used to the gawkers and admirers of this locale. It's no big deal, I can handle them.
Eventually someone of note will notice how well you have done, now it is gut-check time.
Do you remember that scene at the end of the Matrix where Neo is in fighting the agents and everyone on the ship is ready for the sentinel attack? Morpheus has put everything in order and lived up to his vision. He has tried to position everyone to succeed in the coming fight. He is putting his ideals and vision on the line to defeat the Matrix. His intro into the final scene begins with him being outnumbered, out-gunned, and trapped. He looks up to the camera with his hand on the panic button and utters these words:
"Here they come."
Well in a little over one week, they'll be coming.
Have I really cemented a relationship based on trust, mutual love, and unfathomable dedication. Have I done everything I can do support and care for one person as best I could? Have I truly made a following of perfection that nothing can shake. Can I work through my own personal insecurities and really be TMAME. Do I have the courage to live up to and through my ideals?
In a little over one week, We'll be at the party of the year, hob-nobbing with the rock-stars and idols of the kink world. Does what we've manged to create in our tiny flyover world withstand the glitter & glitz of NYC? Can I sit at the bar with the rock-stars and hold my own?
In a little over one week, we'll find out.
Here they come...
